Familiar

Dear Tuvia,

Your new chair, is my chair and it’s been great for sleeping.  In time, I think you could come to love it as much as I do or at least appreciate the fact that one of us is loving it.

As much as I’ve loved being in Hoboken for the last few nights  with Ami, Shimon, Leora and Ron, sleeping here, in our home, is nurturing for me and I’m closer to you.

Today could be a great one if you are still here with us and prepared to wake up.  Of course that’s what I want but it’s really up to you at this point, right?  Maybe you’ve have enough.  Almost 92 years of living.  Maybe that’s enough for you?  Selfishly, it’s not enough for me but it’s not up to me.

Ami is bringing Ron with him and I’m glad for Ron to spend time with you.

It’s early right now, 3:30 AM.  If you were here you would be taking this break with me with some OJ or water, and pushing both of us to try for more sleeping.  Honestly, I just slept deliciously and in a few hours, now that Tara is back from her  new summer home, she’s poised to spend time with me.  A real friend, right?  Sharon will be with me later at the hospital. Jane, Nancy.  We have such great friends, my love.  We are rich in friends who want more of you too.

I just spoke with Adi and Mia.  It sounds like the transition to their new schools will be well supported by the school staff. Smart.

Funny, but I’m feeling like I might want to spend time in Israel if you decide to leave us.  I’ll feel like I’m there with you. You have given me Israel in a way I never had it on my own.  I want to walk at the edge of the sea for both of us, Makes sense right?

But for now I am hoping that just a few miles down the road you are preparing to get ready to wake up and slowly make your way back to our life together.  My arms are open.

Miss your calls, your voice on my phone my love.

Bonnie Shuram