Dear T,

After the intensity of the last week two full days of family felt so comfortable.  Ami, Leora and Shimon arrived to put the finishing touches on our media hub, offering us more movie options.  At this very moment I am watching/listening to a new Amazon series.

Late breakfast and Tom Sawyer and no one noticed that you weren’t with us, but then this was not one of our favorite spots, right? Food just doesn’t taste right to me since I got to start that yogurt with you sitting across from me last Friday.  I’m hoping that very soon I will love food again. For now, I’ll just eat the way you pushed yourself, to keep yourself nourished. We returned to house with enough time to sit and prepare for visitors.
My cousin Elaine and Lou arrived, hungry and I was happy to get them fed.  Nice always when our families connect. But soon Ami led the Rosenbergs out and back to Hoboken so he could finally prepare to return home to Adi and the kids.

Soon my brother Rick returned, this time with Leigh, Dani and Cliff and the conversation often turned to you and stories were offered and loved.  Jeff and Marla were the last of the clan to arrive.

Loved having them all here honoring you, supporting me. Of course, you were the only one missing.

Soon the house emptied and I took Rick for a dinner at Bone Fish before he returned to Israel.  First time back there without you and when the hostess asked where you were, I didn’t fudge it.  Died, he recently died. She couldn’t hold back her sadness or her tears and when she sent Tracey to serve us, the kindness just escalated.  My brother was impressed, I was cared for.  The medical team at Valley could learn something about caring from our buds at BF don’t you think?

Home now, getting ready to end another day without you, this experience remains an out-of-body experience for me.  I’m here, you’re not and life continues. That’s all I can figure out right now. Tomorrow we host another day of shiva here.  Your ears will ring as family and friends remember you again.

Miss you T,

Bonnie S