Sorry I missed last night’s letter to you but I was with Jane and Michael for dinner and deep conversation and I tried a bit of a sleeping pill. Big mistake, just didn’t work for me and I woke up in a morning haze, not me.
I am out every day trying to return to life. My nights are disturbed so I come into each morning without much energy. Certainly not enough for serious exercise. But I was out with Sharon on Monday for a slow, easy walk and took another one today around Nyack before I met up with Bonnie and Julia at the Arte Cafe. Yes, we were able to sit outside but it did get really hot as we said goodbye.
I just have to remember that it was just last week that we said goodbye to you. Just a week.
So my first week without you was filled with friends on Facebook, in cards, on the phone, in person.
T, we are/were rich in friends.
I am in the new chair now and I’ll probably be here for the rest of the evening.
You are everywhere and nowhere.
I have my Israeli connection at 2AM, I have texting with Tara and my Bonnie team… but I have a new silence in this house and back at my apartment- I was there today- we are everywhere.
I am scheduled for Labor Day in Ellenville, a closet cleaning with Dana in my place on Tuesday and a therapy appointment with someone we both know and like a lot on Wednesday, and a meeting with Maris on Friday to make sense of our necessary trip cancellations. Yes, I’m keeping our March trip with J and M.
So my love, I could write so much more but my eyes are tearing and my energy is almost at an end for today.
Love you always,
And tonight, I’m going to try Julia’s cool gift