I know you won’t be happy to hear this but as much as I tried to get back to normal today, grief snuck up on me with no notice.
Yes, it was a gorgeous day today and yes, I was back in my apartment with everything mine and yours, and yes, I was back with Jonathan, productive and creative, pplanning a new project with my ukulele and some singing, maybe. I can’t say anything more about that now. SHHHH….
But after conversations with Adi and Ami, I started to tear and shake and even my ride to Long Island, my long, slow ride to Long Island couldn’t bring me to a place of calm. It’s just not in the cards right now.
Of course I did enjoy a holiday day dinner with family and kids around me but I am now officially in deep grief, with a few flashes of sunshine…
No matter where I am, I’m missing you and that reality seems to transcend the current holiday season.
Miss you T, with all my heart ,