Dear Tuv R,
There’s something magical about Ami and Adi’s guest bedroom- last night I slept! Not from start to finish, but more hours actually asleep than I can remember or feel in months and with that fuel. I woke ready to take on a day of adventures.
We began in the backyard, cleaning up, pulling weeds and Mia and Mihael began to hang decorations for Sukkot beginning on Sunday. I was relaxed and comfortable and poised to return to NYC for a second time since you left us.
We strolled along familiar streets along the river. I couldn’t help but hang back and return in my head to visions of walking toward you as you waited for me to return after an HVWP day in the City. As I exited the PATH station and started walking to the river, there you’d be waiting for me to enjoy a lingering at the river.
Today I joined the family’s adventures at their familiar stops at the lower end of the city. We walked through a Singapore exhibit entitled, “Inside Out”. I kept thinking it had something to do with the recent movie but no, it was more about the arts of Singapore. Not so exciting, but exploring spaces as a family was terrific.
We ate across the street at an open air market, we moved from one favorite shop to the next and I added new stores to explore further the next time around.
While it was wonderful to walk in the shoes of Mia, Mihael, Ami and Adi, your shoes were missing and without them, it felt hollow. I occupy both poles. I’m with the family we both love and you are missing for all of us.
Yes, I’m glad to be out and active. Yes, I’m glad to be writing and digesting this new life of mine, but don’t think for a moment that this isn’t damn hard without you.
I’m off for today. One more episode left of Cedar Cove for Season 2.