I just watched this week’s episode of Scandal and loved it! You might be wondering why you can’t remember Scandal. It’s obvious. You tried watching the show with me a few times and couldn’t make sense of it. First, it moves too fast and second, it’s way off the charts of reality. For me, it’s like a ride in my fantasy sports car, for you, it made absolutely no sense. So I used to watch it on my own time, usually when you were sleeping. But tonight I watched it in real time. I had the 9 PM slot to myself. Ugh, not by choice, Tuv.
As for the day that led up to my pleasure with Scandal, it was another nice one- still warm for the end of October, productive- I was back at the gym for a good workout, I had lunch at the Art Cafe with my book buds, I even got to shop at Chico’s with Val’s support and then back to Rockland for dinner with Jane,Michael and Hilda.
I’m keeping myself busy- productive even, but why is it that when I stop to take a breath, I pause to sit on my couch, I change the sheets on the bed, I drive up and down the mountain, I’m racing in my head, trying to break the silence.
I can’t hear your voice, I can’t see that smile on your face when I try on something from my Chico’s bag, I can’t show you the recreation of your rings proudly living on my finger.
I’m remembering a text I got from Andrea a few days after you died. She asked me if there was anything she could do for me.
I responded immediately ” Yes, can you bring Tuvia back to me?”
“No, but what anything else?”
There was nothing else. Nothing else.
And there’s still nothing else I really want.
Miss you always,