Evening T,
I didn’t think I’d be writing tonight with low energy but let me try and bring you this day.
I was up with my usual teary eyes- but my apartment routine moves me along now.I’m even adjusting to my electric stove by allowing more time to heat the pan for scrambled eggs. It’s all just part of the process- getting used to life without you. Ugh, I hate this!
But okay, I was up and out by 9, off to an Apple session. I need fresh inspiration to get back to my digital work. But trying out a new Apple store only made me realize that my Apple that I love so much is turning me loose-no more Final Cut support. As a young pressured techie ran to find someone to offer me temporary help, I plugged myself into the interviews I made with you and transported myself back to our comfortable conversations that I miss of much.. I was fixed in our past as everything Apple simply faded away. All good.
Back in the oddly warm December sunshine I regrouped and met up with Joy and together we found a great new piece of exercise equipment to make me happy as I try and get back to a new routine at home when I just can’t get myself to my new gym.
We stopped for lunch at our favorite diner on Rt. 17 and I realized that without you, it just isn’t the same. That’s one place I can’t go home to.
But movies, now movies- still welcome me home. I miss you for sure, especially when I’m confident that it’s a movie that you would love too. The new Ron Howard flick- his Moby Dick was a great whaling tale, complete with a very life-like Moby D especially in an IMAX theater. I did nap a bit and miss you a lot but we loved movies before we found each other and that continues for me and Marie France was great company.
Coming back to my digital life, shopping for an elliptical machine, living in a movie, eating with friends- yes, it was a pretty good day.
Love you T,
Bonnie S.
You covered a lot of ground yesterday! And yes, the Suburban must be the one place that would be much too memory filled to return to for a good long time.
Yes too painful to be there for now
You are growing and learning the new routine. Diligent has been my OLW for the year. It comes to mind when I read your posts and think of how you are creating new each day. Hugs.
So much to enjoy reading about your day, Bonnie. It feels good to hear that some parts worked well, and that you carried the sadness along with you, and still kept on.
It seems like you need so much to take this life challenge. I am more and more in awe of people like you.