Letters to Tuvia#135:As You Got Older(1-26-16)


Morning T,

Funny, I’m remembering a decision you made just 3 years ago when the medical “experts” were sure you would need open heart surgery and you were sure you didn’t and yes, you were right. We got you back home,you called me into your study, had me sit with you at the window and you quietly but firmly announced that you would need to get away with me once a month.

“What?Really? Once a month???  I don’t know T.”  I have work commitments.  The expense.”

You smiled and gently grabbed up my hands. “We will work it out.  It’s going to be great.”

We started traveling more than ever before. I  still had my work, you still worked. We made more time for getaways and it was so good to be in motion.

And now without you by my side I am not traveling once a month but I’m listening….

“Get off the couch, fill your suitcases, get on a plane, keep moving.”

In November I traveled with my HVWP circle  to the NWP annual conference and even though I took my tears and sadness with me, that circle widened around me and held me tight and when I got back home I knew I couldn’t sleep in Paramus ever again without you.    I took my time and started filling suitcases, moving back to my space above the Hudson.

I’m back home once again from my rejuvenating trip to Israel walking the streets with our family and friends. Two weeks away and this time I left behind my tears and tsunamis and after a weekend of snow and forced hibernation I’m wondering, WHAT’S NEXT?

So thanks T, you continue to keep me moving off the couch. My suitcases, now empty are calling me, screaming to be filled with tees, shorts and sandals for my first solo trip back to Cancun on the last day of February. I’m in motion

Love you T,

Bonnie S.

PS Just one more thanks T. You just sent ne my OLW for this year
MOTION ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹
Love you

26 thoughts

  1. The echoes of Tuvia’s voice puts you in motion to continue living and following his example. It seems that when you leave, then return home another piece of the puzzle of life falls into place for you. Keep discovering life!

  2. I am so happy to hear that you are keeping those suitcases at the ready with his voice to prod you onward. Waiting around is just not you. You will feel his gladness and energy each time you fill those suitcases!

  3. What joy you are finding by listening to Tuvia’s words, Bonnie, and leaving those suitcases out and ready! We can never know how something in the past will affect us and help us in the future, and I’m glad that you remember, and are listening.

  4. I’m glad you are still listening to Tuvia. She’s still with you, you just can’t see her. I’m so glad to hear that you’re getting out. I’m sure Tuvia would be, too. ๐Ÿ™‚

  5. This post seemed to strike a light-hearted note as I read. I was glad to see your comment that writing it was uplifting! It is good to keep going, even if you have to take the tears with you sometimes. And when you go, we get to read about it and travel vicariously!

  6. Bonnie, it is wonderful that you are traveling again. Keep listening to Tuvia. He will always be there guiding you and having your best interests at heart. On an entirely different note, Kathy and I have the chance to go to Zambia this summer. For someone who hates to fly this is going to be a big thing for me.

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