Letters to Tuvia #191 A Day of Swinging(3-29-16)

Evening T,

I’m still here but Rosie has joined your.  She’s been struggling for the last few weeks and she  was officially  gone by 5:55 PM tonight. Ironic, that your family got the news from Pat through me.

I’m remembering the first time I met Rosie.  We were a new couple and I was on my very best behavior as we picked up  Rosie in the city and took her  with us to Ami’s engagement party.  I offered her the front seat but you opened the door behind you for her.  She was not happy but accepted our new reality.  Lydia’s sister, after many years.  she still felt set aside and I wonder if she ever really was able to accept another woman in your life.

She was a character, that’s for sure,   but for you family first, no matter what!  I so respect your loyalty and even though Rosie was a true narcissist you always got over your frustrations and called her back. So for you, T.  I will show up for her memorial service when  Pat has details for us. .

The news fit this day, T.  I was  swinging today- high, highs and lows of despair and the only way off to despair was to consciously  lift myself  off the couch and up onto  my Elliptical   and when that wasn’t enough back into the living to take up  my guitar and try to make some music. So good!

But when I was up, wow was I up high: My Slice of Life video was complete. I met with a business manager at the Apple store and left filled with great ideas for my Tell It Digital project.  I made plans with Sharon and Marie France and Hilda and Tom for dinners and work at SUNY… Yes busy.. yes family and friends… But it wasn’t without the silence..the longing to share my day with you… to share the news…

Am I really adjusting to this new life…forward and back… up and down… I’m dizzy…

Miss you of course,

Bonnie

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