Spoiler Alert if you haven’t seen Brooklyn, the movie.
Evening T,
I was planning to write into the morning but my fingers itch to get this out on the page.
I’ve been inside since my return from Ellenville this morning just breathing in the new spirits around me: candles in the fireplace , candles on the new top shelf of the media unit and on the TV, the movie, Brooklyn, a well reviewed 2015 movie, nominated for awards lore. Funny, but I did sit through a viewing of it in the Fall, at the mall with Marie-France. I thought I napped just a bit, but no, I missed probably 2/3’s of it. I was so exhausted then. I probably missed most of the movies I ran to see, Just being in a dark theater was my salvation- my way to be in our church, even it was the place I missed you most.
But here, in my very fresh, very clean apartment, on the TV that we watched our last months of movies together, I’m teary, but wide awake for each lovely frame of Brooklyn, 2nd time around. Yes, Tuvia this is a movie that would make you smile and feel that it was not a waste of time or money. Irish characters, beautiful ,radiant and honest protagonist immigrating to Brooklyn to make a new life for herself. A wonderfully organic, honest boyfriend… and love!!!!
It’s in the second our of movie and I am starting to tear up.Right now you would turn to me as I sob and gently take my hand, rub it against your cheek and kiss it and I would cry even more… like I’m crying now. I wonder, are my tears the same…
When we sat together in the darkness and I say body shook as I sobbed and you held onto me tightly I felt loved.
Now? I want to say that I feel your presence even if you are not actually holding onto me.
I can say for sure that I am sobbing, but it’s not a mourner’s tsunami.
Last kiss T…
Yes, you are with me…
Bonnie S.
Digital Bonnie 
Emotions form the movie story mixed with your own story and emotions would be considered a criteria of a good movie. I hope that you have a good weekend with sunshine and music.
I always know I can get a fresh insight from your views on movies, Bonnie. We have not yet seen Brooklyn, but it was more how you have used the movie theater as a place of refuge that sticks with me as I read. I can see see you, in your seat, with stories unfolding on the screen as you seek some solace and safety from the world, and thoughts. I know your healing continues … I continue to be grateful for your writing.
Kevin
Your writing is so powerful – mixing the emotions the movie brought out and the emotions of your personal life. Thank you for sharing both with us.
Bonnie, I am so intrigued (that doesn’t sound like the right term, but I’m not sure there is one) with your process of healing and learning from it. I am always touched by your letters, and I send you hugs! Now I want to see Brooklyn. I’ll wait for a day I want to cry though!
Healing comes with the tears. He is there, always.
I didn’t remember that you saw Brooklyn in the fall, too, but it’s like a marker, from then to last night. I see that the sadness is still there (not surprised), but it is also a warmth of sadness, knowing that Tuvia will remain with you always. It’s part of how I feel too Bonnie. Thanks for sharing this today.
Yes movies are easier to watch now.
I could barely sit still in my seat a few months ago and the tears flooded me
Easier now…
Everything becomes easier with time. That doesn’t mean that we forget or that the emotions are just as strong. They are, but somehow they are different as well.
This is so beautifully written and touching. I now will have to see Brooklyn after your recommendation!
W\hat a lovely piece. I loved the movie as well. So touching.