It’s back into the deep freeze with a call for a bit of snow late tonight. According to the weather guys we’ve come to rely on, it doesn’t seem like there will be much snowfall but this is could be that last surprise from Mother Nature that we can always count on-the one you never wanted to believe could still hit. Last year we had substantial snow fall in March, remember?
So last night we were able to celebrate Ron’s birthday with just the cold and no worry of snow. Most of the day I was home, catching up with my computer updates, prepping for some editing work on videos Ive been sitting with. I was just enjoying my new living room. After a few weeks on the run it felt good to force myself to slow down and breathe on the couch.
An evening in Hoboken, as usual, and everything felt familiar. Ami was here to supervise the delivery of the new window that will take up a whole wall in his new apartment. Lots of prepping and just the frame arrived for phase one. It was exciting to meet up at the old place and stroll over to get a look at the progress . You would have loved it, just the opportunity to share it with Ami. We both wished that you were with us.
We met Ron and Leora at a Cuban restaurant closer to their place. A small space, filled with a Saturday night crowd with high expectations that the meal would be great. It was good for us, you, no we would have picked that place with you. No bread and lots of seasoning. But the cake, the dark chocolate extravaganza created by Leora now that you would have loved. You would have refused to even share a slice with me. Wow!
Both Leora and Ron are building their culinary skills and I have been enjoying for both of us. It was a good night to be in the Rosenberg circle. Leora is looking great and doing very well in the dog-eat- dog world of NYC business. Smiling, right???
But the, as I said my goodbyes with Ami heading to the airport to get back home to Israel, I headed to my place just the way we always headed back to Paramus after a family evening in Hoboken. In this new world I live in I had that spot on the Garden State Parkway to race thru- that spot where I used to slow up, flip up my right turn signal and take exit 165 to our house. Instead I moved as quickly as I could into the left land and sped away quickly. It’s not yet natural for me to keep going, moving away from our Paramus home. I wonder when it will feel right. Maybe I hope it never is.
My question still: How do I create a life I really want without you?
I miss you T. Ami misses you T. We all miss you, but we all know you can’t come back.