Last night was the night you would have loved. I arrived early, with fresh tulips for Adi and favorite holiday foods- gefilte fish, horseradish-red and white and chopped liver, fresh from Harolds. Just some nice time with the family sharing a vodka with Ami, a walk to see the latest changes at the new house- wow!!! You would be so proud!
And back home, with still the peace of pre-seder calm that we always loved so much. So comfortable to be with them…
Adi filled the house with great aromas and just as I was dying to dig in family arrived the clumps… Ori, Natalie, and kids from Philly, Ron and Leora just from other side of town and soon we were at the table with Haggadahs in hand and Ami, quietly, calmly directing our focus. Just enough for all ages… and finally we were eating. No drinking for me… I had two vodkas under my belt from the arrival and now everyone seems to be focused on my driving home safely. No worries, I was fine even if it was so hard to leave without you.
So this is the new norm for me T. I’m okay. I’m great in small groups. I’m almost spirited in a crowd. Silent still when Hebrew dominates, but that’s nothing new and it won’t change but that’s what you get when you hook up with Israelis- no, I’m not complaining even though Mia is frustrated that I don’t speak Hebrew.
I’m good, really. Maybe on my way to great. Not sure about that. But I’m missing you differently most of the time now. The ache is calming down.
On to sedar #2 in Ellenville- the well oiled Marla machine 🙂
PS. I’m excited to be sharing this Letter to Tuvia ,with RuthAyers Saturday Celebrations and her vibrant community.