Morning T,
Last night was the night you would have loved. I arrived early, with fresh tulips for Adi and favorite holiday foods- gefilte fish, horseradish-red and white and chopped liver, fresh from Harolds. Just some nice time with the family sharing a vodka with Ami, a walk to see the latest changes at the new house- wow!!! You would be so proud!
And back home, with still the peace of pre-seder calm that we always loved so much. So comfortable to be with them…
Adi filled the house with great aromas and just as I was dying to dig in family arrived the clumps… Ori, Natalie, and kids from Philly, Ron and Leora just from other side of town and soon we were at the table with Haggadahs in hand and Ami, quietly, calmly directing our focus. Just enough for all ages… and finally we were eating. No drinking for me… I had two vodkas under my belt from the arrival and now everyone seems to be focused on my driving home safely. No worries, I was fine even if it was so hard to leave without you.
So this is the new norm for me T. I’m okay. I’m great in small groups. I’m almost spirited in a crowd. Silent still when Hebrew dominates, but that’s nothing new and it won’t change but that’s what you get when you hook up with Israelis- no, I’m not complaining even though Mia is frustrated that I don’t speak Hebrew.
I’m good, really. Maybe on my way to great. Not sure about that. But I’m missing you differently most of the time now. The ache is calming down.
On to sedar #2 in Ellenville- the well oiled Marla machine 🙂
Love you,
Bonnie S.
PS. I’m excited to be sharing this Letter to Tuvia ,with RuthAyers Saturday Celebrations and her vibrant community.
It seems that the first night of Passover and the family held you up, Bonnie. Love seeing those happy faces and the food, too! I hope you enjoy this other family time tonight. I have the grand-girls today, so we’re off to do something – a mystery day!
Mystery day- I love it!
Beautiful to read that you are missing him in a different way. And so it goes…
I don’t remember visiting your blog before so I wasn’t certain what I was reading at first, but knew it was special. I find your celebration to be one full of love. I’m glad your ache is easing. Thank you for sharing your celebration.
🙂 I lost my husband 8 months ago and since then I’ve been writing letters to him daily and publishing them on my blog- very therapeutic.
Thanks for your reading. I am celebrating life and I’ve been meaning to join this Saturday celebration…
Bonnie
Great that you were able to be there and enjoy it all.
I love the pics and your wrap-up of beautiful family time together. Welcome to our Celebrate This Week group. It’s a great way to end the week.
Thanks for the welcome
I’ve been meaning to join and contribute