Afternoon T,

I’ m back from Ellenville after a few days of playing with Nas and hanging out with Jeff and Marla,  helping out as they balance their full-time jobs and precious time with their grandson.

I haven’t been without digital tools but it seems like every time I tried to write you a letter, I wrote and wrote and pressed save rather than publish.  That doesn’t happen often but there’s been so much to think about, so much stuff flying around my head that what came out on the page seemed confused and confidential, saved to be digested.

I’m now in the middle of Season 4 of Sex and the City, loving every minute of binging on the lives of the greatest band of babes, in search of love in New York City.  I’m in love with everything about this series and so glad that I waited until now to find my way through it from its start.  We shared the last season and scattered episodes and the two full-length movies, but we missed the fabric and context of their lives as single women, as friends, as lovers.

They are inspiring me now and I’m dreaming again. I’m playing guitar with care. I’m getting ready for Tell It Digital’s first customer, I’m using my sessions with Sandie to look at my life in themes… for example…

The theme of the older man… You weren’t the first one but you were the true love of my life with your particular life layer that brought me so much joy.  I am not quite ready to leave you on the side lines, take down all my Tuvia mementoes but there’s something thrilling in the air, there’s hope in the air…

Just in theory at the moment, but I know you would be pushing me out the door faster than I’d even want to move…

I will never stop missing us, T. never…

Bonnie S.

PS. The pictures above arrived in my FB Memories for June 15, 2010, Cape May, NJ. You were so loved…