It’s a very long weekend without you sharing it with me, that’s for sure. But given the energy I needed to get through this last week, more down time was welcomed, in a strange way. But yesterday was travel day- up to Ellenville for lunch with my dad and Martin and then back home for a nap and the last episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm binging…glad that’s over. And then prepping to meet up with Leora to celebrate her 24th birthday in the Village. Yes, our Village… I rode down our streets to get to the new Spanish restaurant. Yes, it was hard, but tell me, what isn’t? Life without you remains hard in Year 2… Hard to create a life without you, still.
A week of more goodbyes to the life we shared sprinkled with light- holding the new Eidie Kaplan, a marathon coffee meet-up at the Suburban diner, dinner and jazz with Jane and Michael, my first virtual Hebrew meeting with Rivka, a guitar lesson with Jon and last night… Leora in an empty NYC!
Leora is officially 24 today and I was there with her last night to usher in the event with memories of you. I did choke when I got emotional- ” I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone as deeply as I loved you.” How could I not tear up.
You would be proud, T. She looks great, she is now living the life of a young, successful single in NYC. She’s riding her new bicycle like a demon- 60 miles yesterday. She’s coming into her own and I’m so glad she’s sharing herself with me. What a comfort she’s been in this adjustment to life without you.
I’m remembering Leora 20 years ago… meeting her at the house in Hoboken, watching her in the Paramus pool with you, playing, overnights with her at our house- sharing breakfast with her stuffed animals, our photo weekend in Vermont,Shabbat family dinners … years of watching her grow up…
Yes, you would be proud of the adult Leora is becoming… a perfect person to support me in my quest to speak Hebrew this time around.
Yes, your family continues to hold me up…your family is my family.
Miss you. How could I not?