My fingers are sore, a good sore, after a great guitar lesson. News Flash: I am finally able to build my personal repertoire that you always wanted me to have. Honestly, I couldn’t do that before now but something good has happened to my left hand- finally my fingers feel comfortable on the fret board, FINALLY! My musical life with music is feeding my soul. and a recital is coming closer: all of my pieces are back and we are moving forward to the next level. Yes, I am so wishing that my favorite fan was here for this, but that’s a universal given.
Yesterday I confess, was a day on my couch after a energy-packed weekend away with Amanda, Steve and the babes. I did love my Eliana time and first connections with Sadie Rose. LOVE and EXHAUSTION!
I needed downtime to digest the photos that appeared yesterday in my Facebook memories and took hold of me from one of our Octobers in Israel. Just a causal walk on a Tel Aviv street. Just a glass of wine at Banana Beach as the sun set. Just meet-ups with family and friends at our hotel on the 4th floor, on the balcony over the sea. Just one of many trips that we savored and took for granted that they would continue. I needed time with those moments yesterday as I reevaluated my here-and- now.
As much as I miss what it means to be part of a pair, I don’t know that I’m ready to replace you. I think I need more time this second year without you to embrace a new alone life with our life together all around me. I think I need everything I cherish everywhere around me. I think I need time to embrace the memories of us with joy.
Love you Tuv. R,