It’s been hard suddenly to go to the movies without you. Last year I spent precious movie time alone and sleeping in theaters. This year I have avoided movie theaters but it’s almost Oscar night and I’ll be back in Israel on Wednesday so I did spontaneously spend the afternoon watching Lion with Hilda in the smallest of the mall’s theaters.
Of course I knew what it was about but I wasn’t expecting to cry for you. I did. I sobbed as I watched a 5-year-old accidentally separated from his brother and ultimately his family for 25 years.
I was with you, walking in your shoes as you were left at 6 in the hands of a distant relative when your parents had to leave you behind, dealing with the sudden effects of the stock market crash. I was with you.
I was with you as you escaped from the Romanian/German work in Russia hoping to get home alive. I was with you
But today, you weren’t with me to digest this powerful movie and make emotional connections to your own challenges to get home.
I couldn’t talk about this T. I just sobbed and missed you deeply.
I wonder when I’ll be able to embrace a movie in a dark theater and not long for you.
And now to packing… activity keeps me sane.
Love,
Bonnie S.
Oh Bonnie, I’m sorry for this, and your own sympathy for the movie character and connected to Tuvia is love keeping on. I’m proud that you went, and though tough, you did it for Tuvia too. Hugs like always!
As usual thanks Linda for caring so deeply. I’m home and after the therapy of writing out my experience I
Can say that this journey with its highs lows
and balance keeps me human. The movie was amazing and I’m sure most of the audience felt what I did in their way. If Tuvia were there with me I would
still be moved but his absence and connection
Is now part of my reality.
I’m making sense of it all, slowly… with your support.
Packing tomorrow while it snows ✈️
More snow? We are colder, but still not much happening here. Enjoy the trip, too!
As long as Tuesday looks good I’m okay with another day inside tomorrow
Oh dear, you watch an emotional movie and get emotional! Sounds like it’s a set up to get pent up emotions out! In reality, it’s a hard movie at a hard stage of grief and that is why I hope you are now packed and ready for new adventures and new memories. Your Trivia was an amazing person as I have learned from your posts. I am sure I would have enjoyed his company. Have a good trip and make new memories….For him.
You would have
Not really packed yet but in the process
Good to feel emotional yesterday
Honoring Tuvia’s very difficult past